Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in stewyjmu's LiveJournal:

Thursday, April 12th, 2007
1:57 am	recent thought process The hardest things you have to do in life make you stronger, and you only learn that from experience.  They say that only the strong survive but if it is survival we’re seeking, why isn’t it just a walk in the park?  Which is the harder thing?  To walk past your father without saying a word because you haven’t talked in two years, or screaming, “Can’t you see me?  I’m right here.  Look at me.  I am your son.”  Today we shelter ourselves from being hurt.  We claim to be strong when we are only lying to ourselves.    It takes a stronger man to realize this than to walk away.  A stronger man to say, “I’m sorry” than to just let the opportunity pass.  I want to be that stronger man.  I want to stop talking to the one I love the most just to have her come back to me.  Will it work?  Who knows?   But you don’t know until you try.  With experience comes knowledge and with that strength, and with that life and love and all the things that really matter.  Because it is the hardest thing to do: the pursuit of happiness.  Can we ever really get there?  If I had it all figured out I wouldn’t be writing this.  The process of thought to pen to pad is a quick one so don’t let it pass.  Write it down and share it with someone.  Because with thought comes knowledge and with that strength, and with that life and love and all the things that really matter.  So share the love and life and the experiences because through those comes strength in numbers.  And maybe that is all we need. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 19th, 2006
10:16 pm	five-tewy today she put "five-tewy" in her profile. to me its big. much love to all, -matt (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, March 17th, 2006
2:28 pm	O'Happy Day! so yeah...my 'history of the middle east' class has not had a professor all week, but we've been watching videos on topics we need to know. as we were watching a movie on zionism and jews in palestine, a drunk woman, possibly a professor that we've never seen before, stumbled into our room and began watching it with us. and after 20 minutes of her watching the montage of images of the jews building a society...she turns on the lights and begins to drunkenly lecture us on nazi germany. the whole time i was laughing my ass off. it was great. what a way to begin a great night. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
1:46 pm	finally... after a long time of running around being without, i finally have. i tried many a time to find the right, but ended up trying to convince the wrong. all the while, right under my nose was the right all along. as i told the right my problems with girls and she gave advice, we gained understanding and trust. i finally took it upon myself to hang out with the right and sparks flew high. we werent even trying. it came easy. the right is the right for all the right reasons. it feels so good. and i am happy. -matthew Current Mood: happy Current Music: Matisyahu (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
3:06 am	stupid people #1: people who drink iced coffee when it is freezing outside. you should grow a sack and like hot coffee. #2: people who live their lives constricted by the use of racial stereotypes. i dont want to hear walking on campus "oh yeah, he's black so he can dance." or "oh he's asian, he can do my math homework" or "oh, he's jewish, he is a penny pincher." (total exaggerations, but i heard a few today.) #3: people who make it awkward when they mention 'race' and that 'race' is present and they get nervous. "so i was talking to this big BLACK guy today...." as a black girl walks by, and you dont finish the story. dont make it awkward...black is a color. it is a descriptor. if you make it awkward, its like youre calling them a bad name. #4: fathers who suck. end of story. i wish he read this so he could stop fucking around with my sister's heart. fuck you dude. i dont like you and i dont enjoy hearing my sister cry because of you. i know i am going to be a better man than you will ever be you sorry excuse for a HUMAN. JACKass. i think that is it for the stupid people. but yeah...they suck. the 13th sucks. the 14th sucks (if you're alone). much love to my two readers, -frere/neighbor (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 13th, 2006
2:29 am	i never post i never post on this thing. i dont know why. maybe i will more sometimes in the near future. i got sick cause of thursday night. probably because of the pics that got posted by friends on thefacebook. yeah..i look like shit. but i was sick all weekend, and couldnt enjoy myself. but a fun story to come out of it was that on friday at 1 i puked for the first time. just a small one to get a little out of the way. at 4...my stomach died and everything came out. yellow bile. gross. but after that i was like "i need to get something into my system. why not gaterade and gingerale (my usual hangover remedy)." so i had the gaterade and was working on the gingerale...and i felt a rumble, and i tasted the most wonderfully tasting fruity puke ever. so if you ever get everything out of your stomach...drink somethings that taste good mixed...like chocolate and milk...and it will be mixed and be an enjoyable puke. but yeah...kinda gross. went to make alcohol runs. got a keg. went to the abc store, nearly puked in there. sat in my car for 5 minutes. cried listening to my roomie's new CD (fucking beautiful). and chilled with my friend drew at his place for a few hours watching 'true lies' eating bread and drinking more gaterade...this time in moderation. jordo + stewy = disaster. known fact. ok, so posting isnt hard i guess...probably more often. might make my sis and neighbor happier. i think they are the only ones who read this. so hope you enjoy lovers. Current Mood: tired Current Music: panic! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 21st, 2006
10:25 am	current song i'm writing...thought i'd share Even though we dont embrace in love I hope you see upon my face a smile that runs so deep with thoughts of you and me Im trying Would you read and check my note And finally read what I wrote for more than just the words but whats behind them Im trying If I grew the courage deep inside Id tell you straight up when I was by your side tonight I want to sing and play guitar outside your window Just another clich running by Its what you see me as these days -me (2 Comments |Comment on this)